Our Hearts are Bleeding

I serve an Amazing and awesome risen Savior. And through many of the life issues I have in countered He carried me through on His wings. My wonderful husband is the Pastor of a local church. So serving God is not only our choice it is our job. we visit the sick and dying. we rejoice in the beautiful union of two Christian families. We celebrate the breath-taking wonder of birth. He present Gods word is the most passionate and humble way 3 times a week ex halting others to serve and follow this King of Kings.  But one of if not the hardest parts of ministry is death, funerals, mourning, grieving.
This week a family in Ohio that is so precious to me suffered an amazing loss.
Wednesday Erika Jackson, 25 was driving with another adult and Erika's two precious daughters were in the backseat. From the report they say she hit  an embankment, flipped and landed tires up on a steep hill. she was partially injected from the vehicle, but everyone else was good especially the babies.
Her husband is in the military and was stationed in Korea. Since they were preparing to move to japan for 3 years. Now he comes home to the death of his wife. I am not mad, angry, just heartbroken for her momma, my Tammy, if i only knew what to do......

When we lost our two children it was numbing. i was a crying zombie. It took lots of time and sometimes i just needed to cry. I realized that God in His amazing plan knows exactly how long someone needs to live to carry out His plan for their life. For our children it was a few weeks and even months. For Weldon it took 102 years. For Mendy it took 17 years, and for Erika it took 25.

Then i think about those babies, mini Me's of Erika. do I think that is fair NO it is in fact a mothers worse nightmare. but i do know their grandparents and they will love and adore those children to the best of their ability. They will have stories of their beautiful momma, pictures, and Grammy Tammy's face and heart were their mother will always shine through.

So although I don't get why this stuff happens and i really don't like it.i know God is in control and I am at peace with knowing that.